I Prayed at Night to Not Wake in the Morning.
I prayed as a kid. Prayed to be taken from my family. Born from an act of rape, my childhood was violence and abuse.
I was rejected by my mother. By my family. Traumatised and raised to be a monster.
I lived in a house of horror. I prayed for my circumstances to change. Nothing happened.
In my teens I couldn’t stand it. I would pray at night that I wouldn’t wake in the morning. I pleaded God to take me in my sleep. Thankfully nothing happened. My prayers went unanswered.
However I am a believer of miracles.
A failure at school, destined to repeat the horrors of the past, I broke the cycle, addressed the trauma and changed my life.
As part of my healing and transformation, I created Warrior Kids. A self-control and social skills programme for children and teens. It became acclaimed and has been changing the lives of families for 27 years.
I wrote a story on scrap paper as a teen. Years later others encouraged me to send it to publishers. My story became a Storylines Notable picture book, and I went on to become an award winning author.
After years of failed relationships I met the one. She had come all the way from China, and ended up working in a shop in my area. What are the chances?
Language and culture proved no barrier. I was taken in by her Chinese family. Her parents treat me as their own. For the first time in my life I have a mother and son relationship.
My wife and I became parents with two amazing babies.
The trauma from my past wasn’t finished with me though. Believing that I was unlovable I pushed my wife away. She pushed back and left. I was a single parent for over eight years, but then my wife and I found our way back to one another. Our family is together.
Some may think that it is divine intervention. Others may see it as simply chance. There is no telling when, how or where miracles are going to happen. What I do know is that miracles have happened to me.
This article was first published on Facebook and Linkedin August 15, 2021.
Copyright© Tim Tipene, 2021.